InsaneJournal

Keely Ann Williams (keely__) wrote, @ 2008-09-17 15:49:00

XLVIII; keep breathing (close friends only)
Twenty-eight days sober. I have two more days until I am out of rehab and on my own again. Things are a lot different and in all honesty, I don't want to leave this place. It's been my crutch. Councling every day and meetings, even a few meetings with my mom and brother. We talked about the death of Shannon and my dad. How I kept holding onto them for all the wrong reasons. How I blamed myself for Shannon's death. I felt guilty because I was suppose to go with him that night and opted for staying home and sleep. But in the end of it all, I wasn't at fault. My brother should of known better to drive drunk.


I talked to my manager early this morning. He's Just Not That Into You will be coming out in February. The Spirit is coming out this Dec. I'm excited for that to be coming out, I loved making that movie. When I get out of here, I'm going to New York to audition for a role in a movie called Amazon. I think I'm pretty much going to throw myself into work. My manager said that Mark, the one that produced the music video I was in with Justin, he wants me to write a song and make a music video for it. I told him I don't see myself as a music artist, he said I didn't have to be. It's just one song, that he loves my voice.

I want to go back up to Seattle and visit Evan. But I'm sure he's not happy with me at the moment. I'm not really happy with myself, how I acted and been. Finding out the marriage to Kingston was fake kind of threw me through a loop. When I get out, I'm going to talk to Sammy about moving out and getting an apartment or a small house. I have a beach house but it's to far away for work and I got it to be my ''home away from home'' home. Have I mentioned I've been wanting to call Rob. But I stop myself, because he probably hates me and probably wouldn't even want to be friends.

Well, I need to go get some stuff straightened out and sign some papers. I'm going to miss this place, it was nice to see people with similar problems and I'm not alone in this.