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Filming has been well... like any type of filming. I don't sleep much, haven't been sleeping much. I lay in bed at night and just doze in and out, waiting for light to shine through my window so I can get up and do it all over again. I went to see a doctor and he gave me a perscription for depression and sleep. I haven't took any of the depression medicine.. don't know if I am. It might help, I don't know. My mom use to always tell me when things got real bed with me, I slip into this depression and let it take control. I'm not going to let it this time, I'm not going to let it or try to not let myself do it. When Shannon died and my dad died.. well everyone saw what it did to me. I let it do that to me when I shouldn't have.

Nick and Glynic came to Boston to spend sometime with me. Nick is pushing me to talk about Rob and I, and I just don't want to talk about it. Glynis is due about the time we leave Boston and go back to LA to finish up. Soon as we get back to LA, I'll be working double time. Jon was more then happy to work with me around the filming of All Along, of course I'll have the first three weeks of April to film All Along, filming for Iron Man 2 will start the last week of April. Only thing I can do is throw myself into work so I can forget everything.


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I just can't do this no more.

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