Filming is going good and I'm finally at a happy place. Me and Rob are working on our marriage, he spent the week before Easter and Easter with me here in Boston. I almost forgot how goog he smells and how warm his touch is. I miss him already.



.Sammy, Tori, Evan, Jaisen Only.
Have you ever been with someone and deep down in your stomach.. you get that feeling like something is wrong? Like something is happening behind your back? I have that. I have a feeling there is something going on with Rob and that Abbie girl I see on the journals. I want to confornt him about it but I don't want another blow up. I love him, I want to spend my life with him... But something deep down tell's me something is going on between them. I don't even want to think about him cheating on me.. not after he told me he needed me there at Wrestlemania, not after the limo ride to the airport and both of us saying we wanted to work this out.

Not after he said one day we'll have childeren when we are ready. Even adopt if we can't get pregnant. I don't want to think about them to possibly... but ... no matter how hard I try, I can't get it out of my head and it scares me to death.