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I have green toenails [19 Jan 2008|12:26am] [ mood | crushed ] I feel like crap right now. Let me just say, if you're at all depressed, sad, or freaked out about something, Cloverfield probably isn't the movie to see lol. Aim more towards a comedy :) It was good, though. It was scary, but not in typical scary-movie fashion. More like.... you feel as if you're actually going through the ordeal with the people? It was all shot with a hand-held camera, which makes me feel kinda queazy, but that's also cuz of my nephew's driving lol. It also makes me think people will think Thommy copied off the movie when his script has been written for YEARS, but that's besides the point. There was some pretty great dialogue in the movie as well. But today felt so off. At work I was dropping things and making mistakes. Then I felt guilty about not staying at the hospital longer, even though I didn't drive, so it wasn't my choice. AND I felt bad for not staying the night there, even though they said I couldn't. And I feel like I suck hardcore because my mom gave me $20 for food, but I didn't use it. I'm just gonna tell her that we saw a movie and then completely forgot I had it. She probably won't care, but I still feel bad. I feel so sad and so out of control with everything that's going on. I feel fragile and expendable, unimportant yet vital. I feel like I want to be gone, but I so desperately want to stay. I'm afraid of the future and all this apprehension is just growing and growing... I hate feeling this way. I wish something good was on tv. I know I have my dvds but I can't bring myself to put something on. *sigh* This is gonna get better, right? 2 comments|post comment

[19 Jan 2008|11:50pm] [ mood | thirsty ] 1. Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed? yes, unfortunately 2. Do you still talk to the person you kissed last? Um no. 3. Have you ever punched a tree? That would kinda hurt. 4. Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it? No, not all the time. With what's going on lately though, I really hope praying and positivity and strength makes it happen! 5. Do you watch a lot of TV? Yes, I do. 6. Have you tried ecstasy? Nope. 7. Have you ever snuck out of your house? Never needed to <---Same here Lisa :) 8. Ice cream or cake? Ice cream cake -- BOOYAH ;) 9. Break someone's heart or have your heart broken? have my heart broken i guess. but preferably neither <--yep. 10. Never sleep or never eat? atm I'm both starving and exhausted, so I can't choose :P 11. Who was the last person you saw? My mom, andddd Gary, Gary, and Lori 12. Would you ever get a tattoo? I would have had one by now if Mike hadn't shattered my dreams of it lol... but idk, it depends. 13. Who was the last person you had a dream about? Molly and Emma lol 14. Are you a morning person or a night person? i can be either, depends on my mood. <---OMG WE'RE TOTALLY TWINS!! ;) 15. What's the meanest thing you've ever done to someone? I don't know... isn't that subjective? 17. Do you snore? IDK 19. Do you know anyone who has gotten an abortion? Yes, I do. 20. What would you do if you opened up your front door to a dead body? Probably get a freaky jolt and then freak out 21. Have you ever kissed in the rain? yes 23. Are you there for your friends? i hope 25. Do you like to spend time with people? I do, but I haven't been hanging out much cuz I'm either at work, at the hospital, or taking advantage of down time to chill out. 27. Are you hungry? yes! 28. Are you a forgiving person? Sure, but not very forgetting :) 29. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed? What do you do? 30. Do you drink every weekend? no 31. When was the last time you did the dishes? Couldn't tell ya 32. Are you talking to anyone while doing this? Yes, Loorah and I are texting. 33. Do you want a relationship right now? No, not unless it's with people it would never happen with, because they are either famous or non-existant :) 34. What are you about to do? go get water and fruit, mmmm 35. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didn't? Not anybody I know. 36. Have you ever fallen down a set of stairs? Nope 37. Your name plus "ness"? Jackieness 38. Three feelings at the moment? hungry thirsty tired 39.What are you listening to right now? the Disney channel 40. Done anything you regret so far in life? eh, yes I guess but nothing I can do about it now. 41. Where are you right now? my room 42. The highlight of your week? Seeing Lori doing better, and finding boxed sets at Costco 43. What are you craving to have right now? water and ummm some food product of which I've yet to think of 44. Who were the last people you ate with? Lori and my mom, but that doesn't really count 45. What are you scared of? :X 46. Last movie you watched? Cloverfield, last night 47. Last song you sang out loud? Ummm... Bowling for Soup maybe 48. Are you thinking of someone right now? yes I am 49. Who is the last person you talked to on the phone? my nephew 50. Last thing you downloaded on your computer? music for Lori 51. Have you changed much this year? .. it's only been 17 days! <---ahahahahahaha 52. Do you like moms? Some of em 53. Hug or kiss? hug 54. Who was the last person to text message you? Lauraaaa 55. Where was the last place you went besides where you are? Best Buy 57. Do you speak any other language? i can kinda speak un poco espanol <--- Me too 58. Last thing you watched on TV? Hannah Montana 59. Do you dress for style or comfort? Both, but not based on what other people like. 60. Name someone with the same b-day as you? Jennifer Aniston and Matthew Lawrence... and possibly Brandy 61. Ever had a drunken night in Mexico? nope 62. Whats the craziest thing you've done? Ummm, be a passanger in Nathan's car lol 63. Favorite color(s)? color. 64. What is your favorite Michael Jackson song? thriller! <--yup 66. Any plans right now? Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep 67. What are your plans for tonight? sleep 68. What are you looking forward to this year? graduation, I guess? post comment

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