InsaneJournal

Current mood:	crushed
Entry tags:	life, movies

I have green toenails
I feel like crap right now. Let me just say, if you're at all depressed, sad, or freaked out about something, Cloverfield probably isn't the movie to see lol. Aim more towards a comedy :)

It was good, though. It was scary, but not in typical scary-movie fashion. More like.... you feel as if you're actually going through the ordeal with the people? It was all shot with a hand-held camera, which makes me feel kinda queazy, but that's also cuz of my nephew's driving lol. It also makes me think people will think Thommy copied off the movie when his script has been written for YEARS, but that's besides the point.

There was some pretty great dialogue in the movie as well.

But today felt so off. At work I was dropping things and making mistakes. Then I felt guilty about not staying at the hospital longer, even though I didn't drive, so it wasn't my choice. AND I felt bad for not staying the night there, even though they said I couldn't. And I feel like I suck hardcore because my mom gave me $20 for food, but I didn't use it. I'm just gonna tell her that we saw a movie and then completely forgot I had it. She probably won't care, but I still feel bad.

I feel so sad and so out of control with everything that's going on. I feel fragile and expendable, unimportant yet vital. I feel like I want to be gone, but I so desperately want to stay. I'm afraid of the future and all this apprehension is just growing and growing...

I hate feeling this way. I wish something good was on tv. I know I have my dvds but I can't bring myself to put something on. *sigh*

This is gonna get better, right?