24 - January 7th, 1996
Private
I am not quite sure how I felt when Theodore said what he did about the first Christmas after. I think I've been so engrossed in my own thoughts that I'd forgotten that anyone else might know how I'm feeling... which as a result, is an odd mix of guilt (for forgetting him) and relief that... I don't know. Relief that in something, I'm not alone, I think.
I wish others could see how I'm thinking, though. I don't mean to be rude, but I really do need my time alone here at school.
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It feels odd that school has now started again. It feels like something of a relief, knowing that I'm back to something of a more normal routine. I found the holidays to be peaceful, if not exactly enjoyable... I spent an hour or so on New Year's Eve by myself, practising some yoga and meditating, and it felt good - like I could somehow close the door on what went on in 1995 and really start afresh this time. I don't want to waste my final months at Hogwarts, and now my mind is clear, I think I'm in a place where I can begin to rebuild my plans for the future and move on.
On a slightly less grim note, I need to thank some of you for cards and gifts, and apologise for a lack of response. I shall endeavour to make up for that this term.
I am not quite sure how I felt when Theodore said what he did about the first Christmas after. I think I've been so engrossed in my own thoughts that I'd forgotten that anyone else might know how I'm feeling... which as a result, is an odd mix of guilt (for forgetting him) and relief that... I don't know. Relief that in something, I'm not alone, I think.
I wish others could see how I'm thinking, though. I don't mean to be rude, but I really do need my time alone here at school.
End
It feels odd that school has now started again. It feels like something of a relief, knowing that I'm back to something of a more normal routine. I found the holidays to be peaceful, if not exactly enjoyable... I spent an hour or so on New Year's Eve by myself, practising some yoga and meditating, and it felt good - like I could somehow close the door on what went on in 1995 and really start afresh this time. I don't want to waste my final months at Hogwarts, and now my mind is clear, I think I'm in a place where I can begin to rebuild my plans for the future and move on.
On a slightly less grim note, I need to thank some of you for cards and gifts, and apologise for a lack of response. I shall endeavour to make up for that this term.