Jun. 23rd, 2011

26 - 6th February 1996

Adrian
Seriously, do you have any idea what's going on? I swear, this castle is driving me mad. Is everyone all right?

Theodore
Where the hell have you been lately? I've been so worried concerned about you.

Fred and George
Why do I get the feeling everyone else knows about what is going on and I don't? Either of you care to fill me in?

Jun. 9th, 2011

25 - 25th January, 1996

I have come to something of a conclusion that I know of a vague aim and general field I have when it comes to post-Hogwarts career goals, but not a specific avenue with which to pursue them. I suppose this will be something I have to think about in the coming months.

Slytherins
What on earth is going on in this house at the moment? I swear, the place has never seemed so... well, lacklustre is the only word for it.
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May. 29th, 2011

24 - January 7th, 1996

Private
I am not quite sure how I felt when Theodore said what he did about the first Christmas after. I think I've been so engrossed in my own thoughts that I'd forgotten that anyone else might know how I'm feeling... which as a result, is an odd mix of guilt (for forgetting him) and relief that... I don't know. Relief that in something, I'm not alone, I think.

I wish others could see how I'm thinking, though. I don't mean to be rude, but I really do need my time alone here at school.
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It feels odd that school has now started again. It feels like something of a relief, knowing that I'm back to something of a more normal routine. I found the holidays to be peaceful, if not exactly enjoyable... I spent an hour or so on New Year's Eve by myself, practising some yoga and meditating, and it felt good - like I could somehow close the door on what went on in 1995 and really start afresh this time. I don't want to waste my final months at Hogwarts, and now my mind is clear, I think I'm in a place where I can begin to rebuild my plans for the future and move on.

On a slightly less grim note, I need to thank some of you for cards and gifts, and apologise for a lack of response. I shall endeavour to make up for that this term.

May. 8th, 2011

22 - 8th December 1995

Surely the ball must be nearly over by now I think an early night was probably the best decision. I feel a rather nasty headache to be coming on.
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Apr. 30th, 2011

21 - 14th December 1995

Not long to go now until the Christmas holidays. I imagine the castle will be rather quiet without the vast majority of students in it.

Private
I don't want to be around many people this year, so a quiet one suits me fine. I do't want to hear of other people's talk of families and how much they're looking forward to seeing them... not now.

Apr. 23rd, 2011

20 - 9th December 1995

I am so looking forward to getting out of the castle and properly stretching my legs for a while. I've been looking at school work for so long that I feel a different stimulus would be most welcome.

Apr. 2nd, 2011

017 - 18th November 1995

I think I'm going to stay at school for Christmas. I don't know if anyone else is, but to be honest, that's not going to be my deciding factor in the whole thing.

Mar. 25th, 2011

016 - 12th November 1995

I think I'm having one of those days where I'm glad I'm not all that big on Quidditch. I had to stuff bits of rolled up parchment in my ears in the library because a group of first years were still arguing about the last match, but luckily Pince threw them out rather quickly and I was able to finish my Potions homework.

Mar. 2nd, 2011

013 - October 22nd, 1995

Private to: Funeral guests
Thanks for coming. It meant a lot to have some wizards people there. I think Dad felt the same, not that he would admit it.
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Private to: Adrian, Blaise, Theodore
I think Julian has disowned me.
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I'm still not sure about the idea of starting a formal club, but Professor Flitwick was kind enough to allow me to use the Charms classroom for yoga practice on Monday evening, and he says it's there for use in the evenings now the weather's going to turn. I'm not particularly scheduled about these things... just let me know if you feel like coming.

Feb. 14th, 2011

011 - October 8th, 1995

I just wanted to say thank you to the people who offered to lend me their class notes. It is a shame that sometimes it takes a personal crisis to assess your relationships with other people in school, but it least it means that I am able to be thankful for something.

I'm not going into Hogsmeade today, though, so I think I'll just pop up to the Owlery to mail-order the things I need to buy. Having said that, I need to figure out how to order flowers from a Muggle florist whilst still at school...

Feb. 7th, 2011

010 - October 3rd, 1995

I sincerely apologise to those with whom I have had odd conversations with in the last couple of days. Calming draughts can do funny things to a girl (and that's not making excuses, it's simply a statement of fact)... I will hopefully be allowed back to class tomorrow - remaining in the common room is not something to which I am particularly suited.
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Jan. 18th, 2011

007

I must admit that Qudditch isn't exactly my thing, but I suppose it would be churlish of me to not congratulate those who are happy to have made it onto their teams.

Also, this morning I received an owl from my mother when the school owl I sent yesterday returned. It's only taken her a little over six years to learn how...

Jan. 12th, 2011

006 - September 6th, 1995

I don't know if any of the suggested clubs are for me, but I'm determined to do some sort of non-school activities this year. Professor Flitwick has let me start practising the piano during choir rehearsals, and at the weekend I'm going to spend more time outdoors, even if it's just studying when the weather's good. Might go jogging or do yoga or something similar... I find the fresh air helps me concentrate.

Jan. 7th, 2011

005 - September 1st, 1995

Being back in my own space in my dorm at last is such a relief. I actually feel like the place I live in is mine, for a change.

Getting back into the swing of things tomorrow could be hard, though. I didn't have much chance to do background reading on some of my subjects, homework besides, because it was so sunny and hot most of the summer that people in the neighbourhood were in and out of each other's houses having parties and sunbathing and things, so I couldn't risk leaving my stuff out in the open, which was a little frustrating. Though at least if I had to tell someone I was studying so couldn't leave I could tell them I was doing my Maths homework instead of Arithmancy, or something.

I am looking forward to the new things that will be going on, though. A challenge would be a good thing.
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Jan. 3rd, 2011

004 - September 1st, 1995

So, Dad decided that the ideal moment to discuss what I plan on doing after Hogwarts was on the way to King's Cross (you can tell he'd been putting it off, right?). He's got it into his head that I'll be applying to university, though how he expects me to get in with wizarding qualifications, I'm not entirely sure. I didn't dare bring that up, just made some approving noises and said "yes, Dad" occasionally.

Ancient Runes, Arithmancy, DADA, Charms, Potions and Transfiguration. I'm sure I'll figure out something that plays to my strengths from those.

Private to: Friends
Half tempted to apply for a Ministry position just to stick a metaphorical finger up at him, I'm so annoyed. At least there's still the option of a year out after school to figure it out, if I need it.