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Tweak says, "Sir Tweax-A-Lot"

Kitty Pryde (_kitzilla_) wrote,
@ 2011-04-08 03:45:00

Guys, it's raining here in Chicago. I think that the city missed the memo about it being spring break.

Are you there, Cadets? It's me, Kitty.

In all seriousness, I have a question for you. Obviously, you all checked the yes box with Rogers asked you if you wanted to sign up, but I'm still on the fence and have yet to answer either way. So... I guess my question is - would you check yes again, knowing what you know and having lived through those early morning wake-up calls and borderline abusive training sessions?

I always thought that I'd be saying yes immediately, but now that it's actually an option and I'm weighing it against other options, it's actually a lot harder to decide than I anticipated.

So. Pros? Cons? I promise that if you say something negative I won't go around telling everyone. What happens in responses to my journal stays in responses to my journal.

Corbo. Truth or dare?

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Ali

_kitzilla_
2011-04-09 08:43 pm UTC (link)

How are you handling the whole "do what we say when we say and how we say" aspect? I'm sort of worried... it's not that I don't trust SHIELD, but I think my biggest hang-up right now involves not being able to think for myself, or I guess... I guess I can still think for myself, but I'd just be discouraged from verbally expressing those thoughts.

I'm trying to weigh the good stuff against what I think is a loss of a lot of personal freedom. Though I guess that it's not as much lost freedom as someone who doesn't get into the Cadet program, since higher ranking officers don't usually have to shut up and do the grunt work as much as enlisted people do, but it's still something.

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Kitty

rockstarglow
2011-04-09 08:48 pm UTC (link)

~~So how do I say this without sounding like a total tool...~~

Well. I mean, I deal with that pretty well. My dad was pretty strict, and I've always sort of liked having a set plan of what I'm supposed to do, when and all that so I find it comforting even though it is truly grueling work a lot of it.

It's all about how comfortable you are with dedicating yourself to something like that.

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Ali

_kitzilla_
2011-04-09 09:01 pm UTC (link)

Does it make a difference to you that the set plan isn't your own set plan?

I think I'm pretty comfortable with dedicating myself to something that in the end is probably going to help a lot of people... and I mean, you all seem pretty well-adjusted, considering the loss of personal freedom that I'm thinking I'm just blowing up in my mind. But then there's always the what if's... what if I get an order that I'm morally opposed to and still have to follow through with it? I don't know if that's even likely to happen, but it's a lot more likely to happen if SHIELD does actually own my ass. And I won't be able to say no without facing some pretty crappy consequences.

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	Kitty rockstarglow 2011-04-09 10:51 pm UTC (link)
	Nope. I'm crap at making my own plans. Well. Big, over sweeping plans. I can plan a party but anything more important tends to get craptacular. But on the plus side: helping the world! (Reply to this) (Parent)

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