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_listsinmysleep (_listsinmysleep) wrote,
@ 2013-01-21 00:18:00

Private
Of all the times to real

How could I have not know

Beth and Sean getting back together is a good thing. It'll make them both happy and the two of them being happy is all that matters.
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Private to Friends except for Beth
Helga, this is pathetic but I officially give you lot permission should events become favorable to set me up. On dates. Recent events have made me realise that maybe I'm lonlier than I thought I was. Alright you may all now go about your regular business.
/End Private

Private to Beth
How would you like to spend part of the World Cup with me? Gives you a chance to see Sean and me another person who will keep me from killing myself with work.
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Packing sucks. Just saying.

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	Linds missmegmack 2013-01-21 09:45 pm UTC (link)
	That's true for me, certainly. Still, its appreciated. You're likely right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Megs _listsinmysleep 2013-01-22 12:11 am UTC (link)
	I'm definitely right. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Linds missmegmack 2013-01-22 02:14 am UTC (link)
	As you are about most things. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Megs _listsinmysleep 2013-01-22 06:41 am UTC (link)
	I wouldn't go that far. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Linds missmegmack 2013-01-22 06:44 am UTC (link)
	I would. Because you're amazing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Megs _listsinmysleep 2013-01-22 09:26 pm UTC (link)
	I'm hard working and a good friend but I wouldn't go as far as amazing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Linds missmegmack 2013-01-23 12:37 am UTC (link)
	Both of those MAKE you amazing! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Megs _listsinmysleep 2013-01-24 12:15 am UTC (link)
	Can I talk to you about something? I feel like I'm going to lose my mind if I don't say anything but I also sort of feel like if I say something than things I feel like I'm just suspecting will suddenly become real and I don't want that to happen. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Linds missmegmack 2013-01-24 03:22 am UTC (link)
	Of course, anything Lindsay. What is it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Megs _listsinmysleep 2013-01-24 04:37 am UTC (link)
	You know me. I interfere in my friend's lives all the time. I've been trying hard to get Sean and Beth back together because I can tell that they still love each other. But I'm starting to suspect that I've had feelings for Sean for a while. I can't tell him but I don't know how to stop the thoughts now that I'm having them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lindsay missmegmack 2013-01-24 04:57 am UTC (link)
	Oh. Well, yes that IS a problem. Have they started to move in that direction thanks to your help? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Megs _listsinmysleep 2013-01-26 07:06 am UTC (link)
	Beth is determined. She feels really strongly that they should be together. Sean I think is just overwhelmed but I do think that's the decision he's going to make. And they love each other, why shouldn't they, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Linds missmegmack 2013-01-26 07:21 am UTC (link)
	They DID have a very bad break up, right? But...how do you know that you have feelings for him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Megs

_listsinmysleep
2013-01-26 07:28 am UTC (link)

I don't know I suspect. Sean is...he's

The idea of him hurting guts me. And I like it too much when he does things like touch my hand. But that could also be me wanting to be loved. Wanting love. And I already love Sean platonically. I guess maybe it just feels like it could be a very, very short step from the way I love him now to what another kind of love could be. And maybe that's the case between all male/female friendships. I don't know. And I'm not about to experiment on Lennox who is the only other bloke I'm close to.

I just need to figure out a way to put it all out of my head. Which is hard because I need to help Beth through her waiting to hear back from Sean.

No matter what I'm not going to act on anything so the point is pretty much moot. I just needed to say it to someone.

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