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_withoutacause (_withoutacause) wrote,
@ 2012-03-03 09:23:00

Entry tags:

peter pettigrew, remus lupin, sirius black

Who: Sirius, Peter, and Remus
What: Someone needs to stop him from making a really bad decision
When: ...... Before Lily comes back, I think? Not totally sure of the timeline atm
Where: Empty Potions Classroom
Rating: PG 13 for self harm
Status: Incomplete

Cut my life into pieces, this is my last

Sirius locked the door behind him, the satisfying snick signifying that he was finally alone. He could do this here, undisturbed. No one would ever look for him in the Dungeons. He hands were trembling, the wand clutched in his right unsteady but sure. He didn't have a choice anymore, not after what he did to Lily. It could be Peter he hurt next, or James, or Merlin no Remus. He wasn't safe. This was the best option, for everyone.

He placed the tip of his wand at the crook of his elbow and muttered a slicing charm, dragging it up till it sliced through the delicate artery in his wrist. He could see the blood pumping out, but he couldn't feel any pain. He was both relieved and dissapointed by that, he desereved to suffer.

He felt vaguely sorry for Filch, who was no doubt going to have to clean up after him. Oh well, it would be his last prank on the surley caretaker. One last big joke. He liked that idea.

He raised his wand, now suddenly very steady, and placed the tip against his other arm. Blood ran down it's length, but he ignored it. One more cut and he wouldn't be a danger anymore.

I'm sorry Moony.

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_withoutacause
2012-03-07 06:18 am UTC (link)

Sirius felt those damn tears threatening again, and Merlin he was tired of crying. He forced them back, focusing on how everything had gone to shit instead.

"You don't understand," he all but snarled. "What if there is no way to fix this! What if I go crazy and hurt Peter next, or James? What if I hurt you Remus?" He couldn't bear it, he just bear it. If he did anything to them, if they ended up like Lily... Oh Merlin, Lily

"I killed Lily!" Even he couldn't tell if he was screaming or sobbing. "I could kill everyone in this whole damn place!"

He launched off the bed, but was immediatly assaulted by dizzyness and sank to the floor.

"I can't do it anymore Moony."

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__wormy
2012-03-07 07:29 pm UTC (link)

Peter had bitten down on his lower lip. Stupidly he let Remus talk, let him explain to Sirius how they felt, what they all meant to do...

They did love him, and more then once they had all agreed that they would help Sirius, try to fix him....

Peter wiped his tears away, the few that had began to slide down his cheeks once again. He drew back, as Sirius spoke, energy coming back as the potion did its work.

"You---You didn't. It wasn't you, Si--" He broke off, as the other tried to move from the bed and instead slide down against the floor.

Peter stood quickly, and carefully pulled his friend back onto the bed, where he pushed him against the sheets, rather unceremoniously.

"Sirius---Just stop it!"

He did not mean to snap, but he did. Stress and strain was only growing the longer he saw what was happening to his friend.

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thewolfen
2012-03-07 09:47 pm UTC (link)

Peter just did what Remus had been wanting to do. He wanted to take Sirius by the shoulders and shake him, tell him to stop all this and just lay still and everything would be all right. They were all there for him, they all loved him, and they weren't going to give up on him. It didn't matter what he did or what happened; they were the Marauders, they were never going to give up on each other no matter what. They loved each other, they were each other's strongest pillars of support. Nothing would change that.

But once again, Remus internalized his feelings and just let Peter help Sirius back down onto the bed. "Sirius, you're safe here. You didn't kill Lily. And we're going to get you the help you need to make things right." He moved closer, so that he could place both hands on Sirius' cheeks. "Look at me, Padfoot," he said, as soothingly as he could. "Trust me. Please? Trust me. We'll make it right. But you've got to stop trying to hurt yourself. For me, for all of us. Please, just rest here. I'll stay with you. Just stay here."

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_withoutacause
2012-03-07 10:40 pm UTC (link)

Siriu felt all the fight drain out of him, leaving him exhausted and empty. He couldn't bear to look straight at Remus, he didn't deserve the love he knew he'd see there, but he also couldn't pull away. Remus has asked, no, begged him, and Sirius had never learned to say no.

He nodded, once, rather jerkilly, then let him self crumple forward against Remus' chest. He dug his fingers into the smaller boys shirt and held on for dear life. He wasn't sure he could do this, but for Remus, and for Peter and for James and, and for Lily, he would try.

"I'm sorry," he whispered.

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__wormy
2012-03-07 10:52 pm UTC (link)

Rather then dwell on the matter further, and let himself stop and over think what had happened -- to worry all over again, break down and cry fully...-- Peter rubbed against his eyes, forgetting the dried blood there, forgetting, momentarily, that he was within sight range of his friends.

Peter was always the weakest of the four, however he had tried not to show it too much. Right now, he couldn't be arsed to care.

Swallowing, he took a step back, moved away and tugged his blanket free from his bed. Bringing it back over to Sirius and Remus, he pushed it onto his hurt friend, cover a slight portion of Remus' lap as well, from their close position.

Warmth seemed to help during Remus' full moon cycles, and pain was pain.... Peter only assumed it would help with this too.

When he spoke, his words were directed to Remus, rather then Sirius. "D--do you think, he'll be...alright?"

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