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b.d.p. (_deni) wrote,
@ 2010-01-10 17:46:00

King only.

I want to tell Jeni. Or Bailey. Or somebody. I know we were going to keep it between us but this is a huge deal and .. I want to tell someone. And, I guess part of that is .. I'm scared. What if something happens? What if something goes wrong and I lose it? I couldn't keep that from my friends .. they'd know. Bailey would know something was wrong. And .. I don't want to think like that. I want to tell them because I'm excited and I want to share this news because it's amazing and .. I just .. I need to share this. Even if it's just with one other person. I need to share this. Please?

End King Only

Private.

Today was a scary day. Kayla was at King's parents house and .. King was at work. And this morning, right after I ate breakfast, I started getting these really sharp pains in my side. They'd last about five minutes and then go away. And .. it scared me. I should have called King. I know that .. but .. it was nothing. I had maybe three episodes and haven't had one since. It's been hours. I'm gonna have to tell him but I don't want to freak him out over nothing.

End Private.

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	blake _kingston 2010-01-10 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	love if you want to tell someone you can i wont be upset about it this is a big exciting deal so tell anyone you want. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	king _deni 2010-01-11 08:53 pm UTC (link)
	Really? You won't be upset if I spoil our little secret? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blake _kingston 2010-01-11 09:35 pm UTC (link)
	really. i don't care. we can tell everyone if you'd like. i can tell that you are really excited and just bursting to tell someone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	king _deni 2010-01-11 09:53 pm UTC (link)
	I am. I really want at least Bailey and Jeni to know. I've never kept secrets from them before. And I've never kept them from you either. I have something I need to tell you. And you're going to be mad at me but you need to just .. not be mad at me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blake _kingston 2010-01-11 09:55 pm UTC (link)
	Why would I be mad if you're going to be honest with me? I won't be mad. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	king _deni 2010-01-11 10:10 pm UTC (link)
	Because you'll be mad that I didn't call to tell you. You'll be mad that I didn't let you come home from work. Or take me to the doctor. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blake _kingston 2010-01-11 10:12 pm UTC (link)
	...what are you talking about? are you ok? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	king _deni 2010-01-11 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	I'm fine! I just .. I was having really bad abdominal cramps yesterday. But I'm fine. I feel fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blake _kingston 2010-01-11 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	Oh. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	king _deni 2010-01-11 10:26 pm UTC (link)
	.... oh? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blake _kingston 2010-01-11 10:30 pm UTC (link)
	yeah what do you want me to say? that's kind of a shitty thing to keep from your husband. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	king _deni 2010-01-11 10:33 pm UTC (link)
	that's kind of why i'm telling you. if it had lasted longer, i'd have called you. but it was just .. it was nothing. you said you wouldn't be mad!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

blake

_kingston
2010-01-11 10:38 pm UTC (link)

i'm not mad. i'm upset because i love you and what if something bad happened and i wasn't there? i feel guilty about going to work everyday knowing that this baby is still very fragile and what if something happened you'd be alone without me hurting...and now i find out that you were in pain and i didn't know.

i'm sorry if that makes me a little moody, i mean throw this on top of the fact that we haven't had sex in fucking months, or been alone forever. or done anything at all since we got back from Canada for the holidays. i don't know i just kind of feel like this is a big deal and you shut me out.

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king

_deni
2010-01-11 10:52 pm UTC (link)

You feel like we haven't been alone in forever or that we haven't done anything .. you do realize that the fact that I'm pregnant basically means we're not going to be alone together again for like .. I don't know .. at least the next 18 years? Having feelings like that right now probably aren't the best ones to be having.

And I wasn't trying to shut you out. What were you going to do if something happened and you were all the way across town? If it had been really bad, I'd have called you .. and I'd have called 911. You can't be with me all the time, King. I'd like you to be, but you can't.

And the only reason I didn't tell you was because I didn't want you to worry. I didn't want you to think you had to be home all day, every day. It wouldn't be fair to you.

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	blake _kingston 2010-01-11 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	yeah, ok good to know. i got invited out with a few other doctors tonight. I'll be home a little late. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	king _deni 2010-01-11 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	Wow. Okay. That was BS, btw. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _kingston 2010-01-12 01:27 am UTC (link)
	what? i cant go out with a couple people from work? fine i will be home after shift ends. wouldnt want to upset you by going out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _deni 2010-01-12 01:38 am UTC (link)
	that was NOT the point. go out. i won't be here. taking kayla to visit with bailey before he leaves to start filming in ny. have fun with your co-workers. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _kingston 2010-01-12 04:13 am UTC (link)
	fine. do whatever you want i will not be home. going to work another shift. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _deni 2010-01-12 04:56 pm UTC (link)
	you're an asshole. next time? i won't tell you at all! dick. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	text _kingston 2010-01-12 07:24 pm UTC (link)
	i love how i'm an asshole and a dick because i love you. you didn't wake up alone this morning did you? no. (Reply to this) (Parent)