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Tweak says, "Stay in school.."

_northernstar (_northernstar) wrote,
@ 2014-11-09 08:54:00

You guys... I just realized today is November 9th. Why is this an issue, you ask? Because I'm pretty sure I can't remember the last 3ish weeks of my life, and I don't know about you all, but that's not cool with me. So if someone could kindly explain why I shouldn't be freaking the eff out right now (because I am), it would be greatly appreciated.

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curiousdreams
2014-11-09 03:38 pm UTC (link)

You should not be freaking out right now because you don't know the details yet. And because I do not think you're alone in this... missing a chunk of time business. For instance, two days ago was not, from what I remember, 7 November but 17 October. And it's all a blank when I try to remember what happened in between. I'm almost certain I went to bed in my own bed and not a hospital bed from being hit by a rogue bludger or spell or something..

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_northernstar
2014-11-09 04:41 pm UTC (link)

Details or no details, three weeks of my life are freaking gone. Not an hour, not a day, not a week. THREE WEEKS. Sorry, alone or not that is serious business. Pretty sure the only proper response at all to something like this is freaking out, especially if it was more than one person. Shit like that is never good. What happened to us in that time frame? I should just sit around with a smile on my face totally calm when who the hell knows what happened to us? Sorry, Gran, can't do that.

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curiousdreams
2014-11-09 06:17 pm UTC (link)

You're not the only one missing three weeks. I never said to sit around with a smile on your face totally calm when who the hell knows what happened. All I said was you should not be freaking out because there's a lack of details. And freaking out will just cause everyone else to freak out, and it won't do you any good except to keep escalating the freaking out.

I haven't been here as long as some, but, from what I can tell from various things I've heard, it seems to me one of the first rules when something strange happens here is that it is likely caused by the village magic. Given that information, it's safe to assume that this is likely another one of those cases, that, for whatever reason, this place had another strange magical occurrence. What the details are, I don't know, but I'm betting it's safe to assume it caused this mess. ~~There's also the fact that there's no reason just the two of us would be targeted to have our memories obliviated.~~ ~~And I'm really not sure what else to say to you because I'm not really Gran, not really how you remember me at least, so I'll probably just not say anything else since I can't~~

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_northernstar
2014-11-09 06:35 pm UTC (link)

I know it was the magic, that much is pretty much the most obvious about this entire situation. Don't know what else would cause anyone to lose such a huge chunk of time. Everything here is the damn magic anyway. But I'm not you. I can't not freak out. I can't be calm, at least not yet. Magic or no time is gone. Memories are gone. Important information is gone. What if something really bad happened? What if I did something I need to remember? What if something freaking awesome happened and I can't remember that either?

I just don't understand why just because we lack details, we shouldn't be a little bit freaked out about this situation. I know I asked for a reason, and you're just trying to give me one, but I don't feel like it's good enough. Sure, maybe we shouldn't be running through the streets screaming and crying and causing mass hysteria, that wasn't what I was implying, but a little bit of unease and freaked outedness is entirely appropriate right now.

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curiousdreams
2014-11-09 11:02 pm UTC (link)

I am freaked out, but, for me, there's a difference between being freaked out and acting freaked out based on those emotions. If I act freaked out, I will begin to freak out and let that feeling take control. I'd rather not lose control of myself if I can at all help it. So I'm trying to be calm, trying to think logically, and have been trying to find some trace of information that might tell me what I did these past few weeks. So far, I have not found it, and, while I really do have a sense of dread, panic, and fear, I am working not to give into it. Too much information, I'm sure, and I'm sorry for that. And I'm sorry I can't offer you comfort or answers, either.

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_northernstar
2014-11-09 11:07 pm UTC (link)

Apparently I lack the cool-headed gene. Though that's not entirely surprising, considering the non-Malfoy genes I've come to inherit. I wish I could be collected. I wish my emotions didn't rule me. I really do. I want to be calm. I want to think logically, but I kind of can't. My brain is just yelling at me right now and I can't even try to begin to quiet it. That's just who I am. I don't particularly like it, but I can't change that either.

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	madmalfoy 2014-11-09 10:11 pm UTC (link)
	Well, love, do not freak. I can't quite recall the missing time either, but I am glad to see you. No, really, walk down the hall and give your grandfather a hug. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	I just... how can everyone be so calm and not want to freak out completely? This is kind of terrifying. I'm glad to see you too, but it feels like I just saw you yesterday. And that was over three weeks ago. My head already hurts way too much for this... Okay. Yeah. Hug. I can do that. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	curiousdreams 2014-11-09 10:54 pm UTC (link)
	~~Oh YOU get to say don't freak, and you get that, but I get a bloody lecture like I'm trying to be some unreasonable tyrant!~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	madmalfoy 2014-11-09 10:56 pm UTC (link)
	Hello? What is wrong? (Reply to this) (Parent)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 11:01 pm UTC (link)
	Did a quill explode? ~~Like that's ever really what happens.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent)

	blueseaweed 2014-11-09 10:25 pm UTC (link)
	I have NO idea what happened. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 10:58 pm UTC (link)
	I know the magic does weird messed up shit but this is kind of a new high. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blueseaweed 2014-11-09 10:59 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, really. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 11:02 pm UTC (link)
	Like, I'm not trying to be a bitch, but this... like.. what? I can't even put into words. Like I said, losing a day or two is one thing. But this is the better part of a month. That's a pretty big, messed up hiccup. I need tea. Or a drink. Or both. My head feels like blowing up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blueseaweed 2014-11-09 11:11 pm UTC (link)
	I don't know. I have been here a long time. At least no one died this time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 11:12 pm UTC (link)
	That we know of. What if they did, and we forgot about them? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blueseaweed 2014-11-09 11:17 pm UTC (link)
	I think we'd have heard by now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 11:21 pm UTC (link)
	That's not exactly what I meant. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	blueseaweed 2014-11-09 11:24 pm UTC (link)
	I am serious. I remember everyone I knew before...this time lapse. I don't know of anyone who disappeared. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	ernie_macmillan 2014-11-09 10:27 pm UTC (link)
	Please do not "freak out" as you call it, love. I think the village may have gone through a little blip again. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	I know it did, at least that's the only explanation. I'm getting that's what happened. But how can people NOT BE WORRIED. What HAPPENED? Like... did the village decide to block something out because it was uber terrible? Or awesome? Or something in between? My mind will not shut off. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ernie_macmillan 2014-11-09 11:02 pm UTC (link)
	I do not think anyone said they were not worried. However, yelling at anyone who tries to comfort you is a little bit straining while we are already trying to sort three missing weeks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	I'm not yelling at anyone. I'm explaining why I'm so bloody hysterical. Yeah, my speech patterns seem gruff, but if I was yelling, people would know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ernie_macmillan 2014-11-09 11:08 pm UTC (link)
	Your capital letters say otherwise, Polaris. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_northernstar 2014-11-09 11:11 pm UTC (link)
	I was trying to emphasize my point. That's why only certain words were capitalized, and not the entire thing. (Reply to this) (Parent)