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Tweak says, "I miss our old relationship."

b jacobs (__bailey) wrote,
@ 2008-11-17 19:48:00

I got a phone call from D earlier. She told me she doesn't feel like making dinner anymore and has put me in charge. So Thanksgiving is being moved to my place. Not that I don't like her and J's apartment, I just prefer my own kitchen to cook in.

So, D and J .. be at my place next Thursday by 2 pm. Dinner will be ready by 3. BYOB.

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_deni
2008-11-17 07:30 pm UTC (link)

Open mouth, insert foot. Times one hundred?

I don't think he gets the significance. Cause .. it's not like I go around inviting just .. anybody to Thanksgiving dinner .. or any of our other little get togethers. There's just no pressing the inner circle, you know? And I wanted him there. I wanted him to get to know you better to see that you're not as awful as he thinks you are. And I wanted him to meet B. Now I don't even want to have Thanksgiving dinner.

And, J? Stop. It's not his fault. He said no because he didn't want to impose, because he didn't want to make it awkward for you. He's not like the others. He's not. But .. I keep putting him in that category and .. I do it to everyone. And I have to stop. I tried to let him in, but .. not in the way that counts. I'm still holding everyone but you and B at arms length. It's not his fault.

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private.

__jeni
2008-11-17 07:38 pm UTC (link)

Oh. Oh, I got ya.
And D? You say it's not his fault, and maybe it is, and maybe it's not. Who the hell knows. What I know is that you've been more sad on and off lately cause he keeps making you that way. Or making you make yourself that way. You say he's not bad, that he doesn't want to make it awkward for me, but I told you I was down with whatever you wanted. And you know I would have been that way. So tell me how I'm supposed to believe it's not him?

He may not be like the others. He may not be anywhere close. But that doesn't mean you deserve to keep kicking yourself. You're not perfect, D. You do hold everyone at arm's length, but the people who know you? The people who know how amazing and special you really are? We're patient. Because it's worth it. You're worth it. So make him realize that, if he's really what you want.

And you listen to me. Thanksgiving, it's about family. And sure as I stand here, you're my family. We're like sisters, and you're damn well not missing out. That much is for sure.

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