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Tweak says, "BEES!"

Saint Patrick ☘ (shamrocked_) wrote,
@ 2012-09-06 09:15:00

Current mood:	depressed
Entry tags:	bad omens, emo patrick is emo, joey, yeah that's helpful patrick

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Joey is alive and in hospital but he never wants to see me again. He's so angry that we couldn't help him. He said it's my fault that he went through it and he's right. If he hadn't known me Lucifer never would have hurt him. Never would have killed Neil.

He slapped me too. Threw water at me and called me a useless slave. I can't blame him. I am useless. One of my best friends was in pain and I couldn't help him and now he hates me.

I don't- I don't know what I might do.

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	famedhistory 2012-09-05 09:27 pm UTC (link)
	[Mentions of Lucifer still make her uncomfortable and freaked out, but it's nothing compared to this. So she pushes herself to reply] Shit. You aren't useless, for one. For two why don't you come by and talk. He also doesn't hate you Patrick. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	shamrocked_ 2012-09-05 09:32 pm UTC (link)
	[The fact that Clio replied at all makes Patrick so thankful that she, at least, doesn't hate him] He said he hated me. He used those words. And a whole lot of others. I'm afraid. Afraid that by keeping you in my life I'm endangering you too. I love you, I don't want you to be harmed. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

famedhistory
2012-09-05 09:37 pm UTC (link)

Yeah I know how that feels. Look I can't imagine what Joey is going through but I remember how I felt. I still feel that way sometimes. Let him heal. When he's up for it, I'll see if he wants to talk to me.

The hardest part of recovery is having people who love you,but can't help.

Oh love, no. If I didn't want to be in your life I'd have walked away. He's just...doing this to hurt you I imagine.

Alright I'm driving over.

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	shamrocked_ 2012-09-05 09:40 pm UTC (link)
	Okay. Okay, let's do that. I love him so much, I hope he won't hate me forever. Yeah. No, that one I know. So you want to be in my life, even though there are risks? Because I understand if you don't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	famedhistory 2012-09-05 09:45 pm UTC (link)
	He won't. I'm sure of it. Yes Patrick. I already decided that a long time ago. Stop trying to get rid of me. I'll be there in a few minutes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	shamrocked_ 2012-09-05 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	I don't want rid of you! Never you. Thank you, Clio. Thank you, thank you. You are saving my life right now. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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